The Falling Apart of the Falling Apart

Falling apart
Into smaller and smaller pieces.
A study in fractal geometry.
Patterns repeating and repeating.

The descent into the earth
as layers and layers of defenses and coping mechanisms dismantle.
The starving beast stands guard over the last vestiges of her mangled coat.
Her coat’s jagged patterns now visible for all to see in the light.

The earth quakes underfoot, an avalanche of what was once safety falling into a million pieces. 
Pacing back and forth, growling in desperation.
Death comes soon for this finally conscious creature.
Death of the death of the death comes soon.
The falling apart of the falling apart.
The joke inside the existential joke.
The meaning hidden in the dark
Only to be seen with inner sight.

This beast curls in like a fern, a fetus.
Held in the infinite space of silence.
In the free fall of truly letting go.
Held in the great infinite dark.
Where all new life grows.

Joanna Renee Fassl

02/02/2019